As you may recall, I chose not to panic. Rather, I chose to go deeply into the metaphysical and emotional attachments that were behind the condition. I created sound medicine for myself and listened to it multiple times a day and lovingly meditated with each layer of pain and belief that surfaced.
The Metaphysical Meaning Behind My Cancer
At the root I discovered a fundamental energy that all of us live with in some way. When that energy cleared, so did the cancer. I received the message that the cancer was gone.
In my first article regarding cancer I refer to it as a disease of neglect. The fundamental energy I discovered is very much akin to neglect. In fact, neglect could be considered a reflection of it.
At the root, I found rejection. I was rejecting aspects of myself that I didn’t like—the parts of me I discussed in following articles—the part deep within that likes and is attached to suffering. We call these parts evil, but they are nothing more than interpretations of our separation from Source.
They are the uncomfortable aspects of who we are, and when we do not meet these aspects with love, we are rejecting them. We are rejecting an interpretation of energy that originally came from Source. We are rejecting ourselves—the wounded parts of ourselves.
When I felt myself start to respond in anger, I stopped the reaction and chose to hold him in love. Throughout the dream, repeatedly, I responded with compassion, until finally he softened and became kind toward me; ready to make reparation for harm he had caused. In his softening and my compassion, there was love and resolution. The angst and pain dissolved.
Fear Reactions to Cancer and Other Chronic Illnesses
When I am provoked or afraid, my primal response is anger. For some the response is to freeze; for others to run or withdraw. Most of us automatically react to fear with one of these responses depending upon the circumstances.
The response of higher consciousness is to respond with compassion. However, we typically need to train ourselves to respond from higher awareness. This is why I teach The Holding with such dedication.
As we learn to hold our fears in compassion, we are training our minds to respond to fear with compassion rather than the fight, flight or freeze reaction that is so natural to us.
I have been using The Holding Meditation with the Sound Medicine CD daily, knowing that as I released the underlying fears, I would be guided to physical choices that would also help me quickly heal.
Within days, I was making dramatic changes in my diet, to even more alkaline foods than I was already eating. I learned what to do to make the water I drink more alkaline. My husband and I take a brisk walk every day, and we increased it to two—getting more oxygen into my body.
I watched my emotional triggers, and took each raw, bruised feeling into meditation with me. I found more crevices, emotionally and physically, that were devoid of enough love—and I loved more deeply, more completely than I ever had before.
I thanked the cancerous cells of my body for holding me accountable for honoring and accepting all the aspects of myself—for welcoming all of me home in the arms of love.
Spiritual Gifts for Healing Cancer and Other Chronic Illnesses
Each of us has a healing gift equal to cancer and chronic illnesses we are addressing. Each of us has access to the Divine love within us that can hold it all until what has been rejected is finally loved again.
When cancer heals because we have fully addressed its metaphysical meaning, we claim a greater depth of self-love and acceptance. The neglected, rejected parts are finally seen, heard and loved. The pain dissolves, and all that remains is love—love enough to hold and heal it all.